Wednesday, November 30, 2011


I want to take a few minutes and write down how I feel about my weight. This post is more for me than anything else, so feel free to stop reading now.

I grew up feeling fat. It wasn't that I was large, it was just that I was larger than anyone else in my family. I am curvier than my mother. By 12 I couldn't fit in her wedding dress because my hips were to 12 years old. Naturally, I have struggled a lot with my body image. After I had Kira I started going to Curves. I love it. Unfortunately, when we moved to Alabama, I didn't have the support system I had in Utah and with Josh's work schedule, it didn't work out for me to go to the gym so I stopped going. I gained about 15lbs and wasn't happy with my body. Then I got pregnant with Rora and everything changed. I learned so much about myself during that pregnancy. I learned that my body weight doesn't matter when it comes to me. I learned to be grateful that before I got pregnant with her there was a reason I put on that weight. It was so I had something to lose during her pregnancy. I lost 23lbs while I was pregnant with Rora. I ended my pregnancy 2lbs heavier than when I started it and left the hospital 13lbs lighter. The thing is, by the end of her pregnancy I could care less about my weight. I was just grateful that Rora came out healthy. My selfish desires took a back seat to my baby. I would celebrate keeping down 1200 calories. 1200 calories was a victory. It seems crazy looking back now.
So now, 3 years later, as I hear people tell me that they wish they could lose weight like I am, that I am lucky, it makes me want to smack someone. All I want is for my baby to come out healthy. If I gain 50lbs, 100lbs, it doesn't matter. All that matters is the child growing inside me. I guess i've rambled enough because my thoughts are now empty.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

What would I do without you!?!

Today I am not feeling very well. That seems to be more the norm for me lately than feeling great. I wish I could be a super mom everyday. I wish I didn't curl up in a ball so I don't throw up. Unfortunately, thats where I'm at today.

Thats where Kira come in. At five she might just be mastering how to turn on the tv, but she is an amazing Mommy. She helps Rora use the bathroom, gets her snacks, reads stories to her, does whatever I ask, etc. All with a smile. I really don't know why the Lord blessed me so much with Akira. Thank you Lord for her.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Simply Spaghetti :)

For dinner tonight we are having spaghetti. Usually it takes me 10 minutes (if that) to prep the meal and get it cooking. Today it turned into a 20 minute plus adventure!

As you can see, we had a lot of fun making dinner! Kira and Covey helped cut the vegetables. Xander helped mince the garlic. Rora opened cans and dumped them in and Jerica dumped cans in. Everyone stirred some love into our spaghetti.

I love taking something so simple as making dinner and turn it into a fun moment for the kids...oh, and the three extra munchkins are dear friends of ours that come play for a couple hours every Wednesday while their Mamma is at school.

Friday, November 4, 2011


Seeing as I have been reminded that I actually have a blog, I guess I better update it. Life is crazy as usual.

We went to Disney World in September. It was a blast!

Day 1 I told Josh and the girls I was pregnant at dinner. They brought Josh a bib and on his plate there was a pacifier and it said Due May 16th :) The girls each got a fun gift from the new baby who was so excited that they got to go on such a fun trip and can't wait to meet them!

We took the trip much slower than we normally do, mostly in part because my morning sickness hit. It was a lot of fun not worrying about getting up at a certain time and just taking it easy. It was a great trip! Rora loved seeing 'Me mouse' (Mickey Mouse) at a distance, but was a bit shy when she got to meet him. As for Kira, her big accomplishment was riding Tower of Terror! (Tower of Terror is the elevator that goes up and down.) I was so scared! As I was waiting for her and Josh to get off I saw 8 kids that were hysterical as they got off. Many of them looked to be at least 6. She came off the ride all smiles and if we had had time she would have ridden it over and over again! My stomach doesn't agree with Tower of Terror so I am doubly impressed at how brave she is! It was a great trip!


Kira turned 5! She had a great late night with her best friends. They had a dance party, played with magnetic paper dolls and spent over an hour playing hide and go seek in the dark. Very low key and such a fun night of memories for my girl!

Brag time on my girl! I have been very sick with morning sickness and she truly has shown how mature she is. She takes care of Rora with such care and love. It makes my heart swell when I think of how blessed I am to have her in my life. I love her so much and I can't believe she is five!!


Halloween came and went. The girls had fun! Kira was an underwater princess and Rora was Cinderella. Of course, I don't have pictures because they haven't been put on the computer yet and I am not near our camera. Let me just tell you how adorable they were! Plusandalso we now have plenty of treats for our treasure box and Rora when she goes potty. She is doing fantastic on the toilet and usually only has one accident a day. Not bad since she isn't two yet!


Josh just had a birthday. He is such a great husband and father! I have spent a lot of time this past month lying in bed or hugging the porcelain throne. Josh has stepped up and done all that he normally does and taken over cleaning the kitchen, making meals, taking care of the girls, etc. He is such a great daddy and I am still not sure how I managed to get him. And knowing that he is mine FOREVER, how can I be anything but grateful? Happy birthday Josh! I love you!!

With me being so sick, I just have to say thank you to two sweet ladies who have taken my kids for me when I really needed it. Jenny and Felicia, you are both amazing and are great role models for me! Your generosity of time astounds me. You not only kept my secret, but you truly saved my kids from boredom and being stuck with a sick Mom! I am so blessed to have you in my life!


And lastly, I had my first Dr appt for this baby. It was one day shy of 12 weeks. I found out that I have lost 6lbs (I was so sure I had gained weight with the way my belly looks...) and I was refreshed to the fact that I love my Dr. She is just amazing! She listens, isn't quick to give out medication, yet when you really need it then she gives it. And most importantly she is compassionate. She knew of my recent miscarriage and didn't even try to get the baby's heartbeat on the doppler. She just did a ultrasound. It was so comforting to see my little peanut! The baby was super active. It was so wonderful to see that everything is healthy and normal. It was so special to enjoy the girls reaction to seeing the baby for the first time. Of course, I was a emotional wreck for the entire rest of the day. The relief of seeing that my baby is thriving was an unexpected treat. Can I say again how much I love my Dr?

I am now able to take Zofran every day (since I hit 12 weeks) and I've been doing much better. I have a feeling that I am starting to get over the morning sickness and into the extra energy phase of pregnancy.

That about sums us up where we are. Life is great! I am eagerly awaiting feeling the baby move for the first time, it is my favorite part of pregnancy! Oh, and Tanner (my brother) gets home from his mission to Scotland in 12 days! I am bummed that I won't be able to go out and see him but at least we will be able to talk!

Congratulations for making it through this post! I can't guarantee that I will be better at posting, but I will try. Life is great, enjoy the ride!