Monday, September 23, 2013

A glimpse into my life with a 3 year old...

The last 20 minutes of my life have been invaded by a screaming MONSTER. 
You see, Kira came out of the bedroom wearing a bra under her dance clothes. (Her leotard gapes at the top.)  No big deal...right?  WRONG!
I tried to placate the beast by telling her she can wear a bra underneath her clothes.  She perked up and then started crying because Kira was wearing the one she wanted to wear.  The beast won and Kira graciously changed.  Rora then put it on and everything was happy...right?  WRONG!
The bra was to loose (since it's Kira's...) and Mommy was able to tighten the straps so it *almost* fits.  Problem solved?  WRONG!
THEN she refused to put a shirt back on.  Sigh.  After 'forcing' her to either take off the bra or put a shirt on (sorry kid, we aren't practicing to be hookers!)  she finally relented and put her shirt over.  Problem solved.  Right?  WRONG!
Now said bra was too tight and HAD to come off immediately, which was rather hard to understand due to the wailing and gnashing of teeth...I helped her take off the bra and put her shirt back on.
Now she is finally back to normal and acting as if nothing at all happened. 
So WHY do I feel as if I just ran a rather exhausting marathon!?! 

Oh, the JOYS of Motherhood!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Search. Ponder. Pray.

   My life energy is sapped.  I am running on empty and my life needs a change.  So I am changing how I read my scriptures and decided to post a little bit here to help me stay accountable.  I am devoting a minimum of 20 minutes per day (today was over 45!) to studying, pondering and praying. 
Rather than simply reading my scriptures and finding the way that they speak to me, I am focusing on the things that I need help with and the modern day scriptures that apply.
   I'm sure it's no surprise that I chose Motherhood as my first intense topic.  I know how amazing the roll of a Mother is, but it is soo hard!  I am overly stretched and feeling like I can't/don't want to homeschool anymore and that breaks my heart.  I KNOW that this is the right path for my family and I hate feeling like I am failing at it. 
   I share that I am struggling only to inspire.  It's interesting that the things that I need most are what jump out at me.  The first talk I read was, naturally, Mothers Teaching Children in the Home by L. Tom Perry.  It's amazing how what I NEED jumps out at me.  Some of my favorite quotes were:

I believe it is by divine design that the role of motherhood emphasizes the nurturing and teaching of the next generation. ~L. Tom Perry
*I told you it was perfect for homeschooling.

Parents must bring light and truth into their homes by one family prayer, one scripture study session, one family home evening, one book read aloud, one song, and one family meal at a time. ~L. Tom Perry
*I need to let the 'other' things slide more and focus on these!

I also like to think she(Mother) prepared so thoroughly, first, to be an example to her children of diligent Church service and, second, because she recognized that what she learned from preparing her lessons could be used repeatedly for a higher purpose—teaching her sons and her daughters. ~L. Tom Perry
*I am a better teacher when I am prepared.  Take a few minutes each night to go over the schoolwork for the next day and each day eliminate one topic that can wait, then replace it with an extra story. 

   Starting with this talk inspired me to make some changes.  We are going to cut out some of the school work that Kira does each day so I have more time to focus on me.  I need to be an example to my kids by letting them see me focusing on filling my spiritual well so that I can be the best version of myself. 
    I've read a few more talks since then, some scripture stories and The Family: A Proclamation to the World.  I am planning on focusing on one topic until I have read ever scripture in the topical guide on that topic, a few per day, along with General Conference talks, history stories (both spiritual and historical) and everything else I can get my hands on.  I may just spend an entire month on a topic!

This has become my new favorite quote!  I need to get it printed up and placed in my home. 

Children are not a gift to us, but a precious loan, a priceless loan to be returned—returned more valuable than when we received them, understanding more, better prepared to return to him who lent them to us. The charge is ours to increase their worth. ~H. Burke Peterson

   My energy in the Gospel, Motherhood and this earthly life in general is renewing and while I know I am only about a week into this, I am excited to see where this journey takes me.   What topic do YOU want to study?